Peace.

The hardest thing to find in this century, because so many things unsettle peace. But I think the most rare and most prized peace that is seldom found, is peace within yourself.

Peace.

I am not a peaceful person. My mind creates emotions and thoughts I don't possess myself 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, all the time. I'm constantly in this roller coaster ride because I'm getting all the emotions display. The gift of people thinking, I say, is not a nice gift sometimes. It affects the person itself because she is thinking the thoughts of others.

Peace.

My world is divided into three types of gifts. There are people with the gift of people-speaking, the gift of people-feeling and the gift of people-thinking. These three are interchangable, and a person can have more than one gift.

Peace.

The people with the gift of people-speaking are those who have the greatest amount of influence with their words. Their words itself can change your thoughts, but they only last when the person is saying them at that present time. After you leave that person, their gift wears off. These people are charismatic, and they usually hold high positions in life because they have the words to convince people. But these people are also the ones with enemies, because the words they utter can never please everyone in total. Plus, once the person finds out that her words are dangerous, they will avoid her.

Peace.

The people with the gift of people-feeling are those who can influence the feelings of those around them. They need not speak, but their very presence affects the thinking process of those around them. Their words can hurt someone, and they may not understand everyone, but all they need to do is to be beside you and you naturally want to forgive and forget. Depending on their characters, they can influence those around them to feel a particular way. But usually, they are not aware of their gift, and what it can do. These people, if aware, can go a long way in life and have happy relationships.

Peace.

The people with the gift of people-thinking are those who are hyperaware of the thoughts of the people around them. They rarely possess good speaking skills because they have the gift to analyze the thoughts of others and hence, take a longer time to craft their responses. They find it hard to interact most of the time because they do not know how to deal with people with multiple traits that are not opaque. They think a lot, and they know a lot. They see things in people, tiny things that normal people miss because its too small, but they see it anyway, because it is really obvious. They rely on their minds and they have the capacity to cope with life because they have seen a lot, in a small period of time.

Peace.

The most dangerous of people are those that possess the gift of all three. Once they have the gift of people-thinking, they are hyperaware of the other gifts that they carry. They can use their words to suit your feelings, because they know what kind of feelings to induce, and their presence erases any doubt, because they have the gift of people-feeling. One character of history stands out with all three, has created a World War. His name is Hitler. Look closely, he possess all three.

Peace.

Few people in life possess all three. It is of the greatest gifts, and the most dangerous. Yet, there are people who do possess the gifts, but to the smallest extent. Their gifts are wrong, because the gifts are given in the other way. There are some I know who have the gift of people-feeling, but the feeling they give to other people is one of immense dislike. Their very presence creates that, and they are unaware. There are people with the gift of people-speaking, who have the ability to use words that cut people into shreds.

Peace.

And so, if people know how to harness their gifts, they can find peace. They can use their gifts for peace. The peace you get from them is one of when you enter a cathedral, where you feel the stone slabs on the floor and the sunlight that streams through the stained glass on the windows. It is the feeling I get when I see the cross in front of me, wooden and brown. It is the feeling I smell when the wind blows past me, smelling of flowers and trees. It is the feeling I get when I see the glow of the pavement when it just rained, reflected by the street lights.

Peace.

It is unhindered by any forms of doubts and love. They don't feel any terrible outcomes and hindrances of love that is jealousy, hate, hurt and doubt. And it is something I think I'm starting to learn today.

Peace.

I think I have the gift of people-thinking. That is why I am creating this. What do you think your gift is?

Peace.

LIMSHAN! HELLO! my name is limshan, and just to give you a headstart... I'm a sotong, and this is going to be a freakishly long post that changes all the time because i change all the time so you'll have to bear with me here:D so...hmm...who am i? Now, that's really simple. I'm a girl who probably should have been born in the 15th century when kings and queens were still alive and girls were still wearing corsets and dresses. I'm absolutely insane about everything vintage, from tables to chairs to old coffeeshop houses near my house. Ah hah! Caught you there! You thought i was refering to the western kind of vintage right?(just agree. I know its lame but fun to try lah) Nope. I like anything old. Old houses, with maybe a little paint peeling off and some faults with the door handles and everything just makes me feel more at home. Don't you feel so constraint when you're in a whitewashed house with perfect glass doors with no finger prints or anything? Anyway, where was i? Ah, just another headstart, my memory skills are terrible beyond belief. How i can forget something that i'm writing now, i have absolutely no idea. Let's see.... Yes, i love the ice cream stands that are stationed outside the toa payoh library because they provide me the sugar rush after i had just studied in the awesome place and i love immersing myself in crowds. I love to be among people, because it makes me feel less lonely in life, and i absolutely adore my neighbourhood. At night, the streets will light up as though magic dust had been scattered around everywhere! Well, in actual fact, there are just over a dozen light shops there, but its really uplifting to see your home place lit up like its christmas on a night on your way back home from tiring school. I love festivals because they're so festival-ish and noisy and i just love the feeling. I exceptionally adore chinese new year because on those few days, everywhere would be blasting tunes that you know by heart and you get to dress up and visit everyone and just be happy on that day without anyone thinking that you're going bonkers. Christmas is fun too, but it doesn't have that boisterous feeling like chinese new year:D it is more of the time of the year where you settle down and think about how great the year has been:D Anyway, i love the smell of cookies when they just came out of the oven, and the feeling of garlic being fried when you step home from school. I want to learn how to play the piano even though the notes look like bean sprouts like me and i can only recognize numbers. I'm in love with country music that has a story behind it because i think songs only make sense when there is a reason for them being written. I miss playing on the swings and running amok like a little girl and i dream that one day, i can be one again. I love dance because i feel less lanky and uncoordinated when i'm dancing because right now, i'm tall and you will not believe how many scraps and pathetic falls i get into everyday because my arms and legs are way too long. I don't dream about guys as much as i used to because right now, i learned that life does not just revolve around love itself because its not worth being gloomy over a single guy and I don't believe in love at first sight. I think love is a magical thing though, because when you love someone, you tend to put him before yourself and that goes against the human nature of thinking about yourself at first. I love writing more than any of those things above because the words on paper are my voices. I'm extremely self-concious and i over analyze everything i see but sometimes, i know that a person cannot be perfect and glam all the time. If you're too perfect, you tend to look at people's flaws more critically and eventually, their flaws become unbearable to you because you have them as well. I believe that we should be just who we are, so if you day dream about love and people tell you to give it up, don't. I have a dream of creating a writing world where people can read when they feel sad, and then feel happy after that. I love writing stories and my main characters often carry characteristc traits of yours truly, and will continue to do so because when i solve my main characters' problems, i learn how to solve my own too. I believe that there is always a fairytale ending for everyone, and it all depends if you want to pursue it. I'm a terribly flawed girl who loves to sing in the toilet, dreams of being a superstar one day, and thinks of changing the world by myself as if i will ever be superman. I used to be a pushover and i was too lazy to even stand up for my own rights but now, i believe that we are all not angels. We are human beings, and if we're upset, we have to do something to ease the pain away. I never liked to scream at people, or people yelling at each other but i understand that they have to find a way to get rid of the things stuck in their chests. I write poems about the things i feel but mostly, they are not meant in any malicious way unless, you've been malicious to me of course. But when that happens, i'll think hard on whether its worth being malicious back. I get scared very easily and i stress and panic really easily but then, i would find a solution to the problem just as fast. I suffer from inferiority complex but i hate to let it ruin my life because its really not worth it. I used to be afraid and anti social but i've learned that to make friends, you have to be a little thick skinned at the beginning because its the hardest to be the first one to say, "Hi." Did i mention the fact that i think love is magical? Well, writing about love is part of me, and i guess it will always be. This place is one outlet where i can just let my thoughts flow and i love it to bits because too often, i dream of ideas that never really do see the light of the day. I treasure each new idea that comes to mind and i hope that one day, it gets shown to the world. And now, I hope that this blog, brings you magic, something that you need in your life, something magical, just like love.
Oh, did i forget to mention? I'm a girl thats called limshan.
And I'm a sotong.:)