I think that I'm neglecting the very thing that started me writing, and that so isn't right so....okay, everytime I come online, and I have, have, HAVE to write something. And I think that this writing thing is good for my mental health too so...YEAH.

So, even though no one would be reading this now, I'll still be writing:)

Lately, I realized that fashion has it stereotypes too. Like, there is high class fashion, and then the low class fashion...and honestly, it's so subjective and super materialistic, it makes the person who thinks that way seem...shallow? I'm not sure, but I know that this part made me lose sight of who I am for a while.

Oh, I didn't tell you this? I'm so over guys, and shopping took over that spot in my life so yeah, it plays a BIG part:)

Anyway, yeah. I realized that there is subjective stereotyping to the places where we buy our clothes, and for a moment, I got into that mindset until my mom told me, "We are the ones showing the clothes. The clothes don't show us."

And then it hit me, clothes...no matter where you buy them from, they are still clothes. Sure, there is a huge distinction of whether you buy clothes that flatter you or not, but I don't think that the place where you buy your clothes matter a lot. That's because as long as it looks good on you, that's all that really matters doesn't it?

I buy my clothes from This Fashion, Bugis Street, and hawker centres. I've only stepped into Forever 21 twice in my life, and I was telling myself, hey, let's do this experiment. Let me try to be 'high-class' now, and try to shop there.

Guess what?

I hated the experience.

The clothes are cool and really really pretty, but they didn't suit me. It was too expensive, and I wouldn't feel comfortable wearing them. It just wasn't so fun.

Then, I stepped into Bugis Street, and I kinda realized that clothes...are just clothes. You go to the places where you love to shop, and make yourself happy. That's what shopping is, and if you're making yourself miserable just to shop at a atas shop...that's not shopping:) And what you say about other shopping places highlight who you are too.

Let's get this straight: Compare the people who shop at only high-class fashion shops, and the people who shop everywhere.

Who would be the smarter one?


Okay...because I haven't written for AGES, I've LOADS TO TELL YOU!:)

So basically, relationships aren't that complicated, nor that easy either. I only realized how much it balanced on this thin strand of hair, and it's hard to keep something you treasure a lot. How do you prevent yourself from overstepping that line too often, and ruining everything you worked for?

How do you make sure that you're not hurting anyone?

The easiest solution here, would be to play mind games.

But to tell you the truth, the other party would be in total misery.

Why?

Mind games are made in such a way that you know what the other party is thinking, yet they can never be sure with what you're thinking. And you're left wondering if you're guessing the other party's emotions right, or are you killing the person..or...

It's just this terrible feeling for that party because...it just sucks. Really badly. She doesn't know what to do, or she's just plain tired of it. She can get used to it, but that doesn't mean she's used to the above mentioned feelings. I mean, who likes being in misery?

No one.

My point.

So please, stop playing mind games. It is really exhausting and tiring for the poor girl, and she is as stressed enough as it is already. Thank you.

OH, I'm not done! I just learned this huge lesson, and that is we are what we are. We shouldn't change ourselves because it will never work. Just like shopping, you got to be confident and love who you are...and those people are the people who truly the winners in life. I mean, your life is for yourself. Who do you live for?
So it doesn't matter if people slamm your fashions sense, snap at your actions, disagree with your lifestyle...as long as you know that what you're doing is right, you're on the right track. Because in those people, what they're feeling is either jealously, or unhappiness at your happiness.

Oh, and people aren't that simple. No one who is two dimensional figure, with a good and bad differentiation. A bimbo is never just a bimbo. She can be a great leader with a big heart and a smart head. It may be just an act, or just a cover up. A sweet little girl may be a gossip girl who is really into fashion and relationships. But you can't tell, because she's a sweet little girl. Don't ever judge people based on their outer appearence and HOW they carry themselves in front of you. There is more to that person that you think you know.

You can never know who that person really is.

Unless you're that person herself. So don't assume you can read her perfectly.

You never will.

LIMSHAN! HELLO! my name is limshan, and just to give you a headstart... I'm a sotong, and this is going to be a freakishly long post that changes all the time because i change all the time so you'll have to bear with me here:D so...hmm...who am i? Now, that's really simple. I'm a girl who probably should have been born in the 15th century when kings and queens were still alive and girls were still wearing corsets and dresses. I'm absolutely insane about everything vintage, from tables to chairs to old coffeeshop houses near my house. Ah hah! Caught you there! You thought i was refering to the western kind of vintage right?(just agree. I know its lame but fun to try lah) Nope. I like anything old. Old houses, with maybe a little paint peeling off and some faults with the door handles and everything just makes me feel more at home. Don't you feel so constraint when you're in a whitewashed house with perfect glass doors with no finger prints or anything? Anyway, where was i? Ah, just another headstart, my memory skills are terrible beyond belief. How i can forget something that i'm writing now, i have absolutely no idea. Let's see.... Yes, i love the ice cream stands that are stationed outside the toa payoh library because they provide me the sugar rush after i had just studied in the awesome place and i love immersing myself in crowds. I love to be among people, because it makes me feel less lonely in life, and i absolutely adore my neighbourhood. At night, the streets will light up as though magic dust had been scattered around everywhere! Well, in actual fact, there are just over a dozen light shops there, but its really uplifting to see your home place lit up like its christmas on a night on your way back home from tiring school. I love festivals because they're so festival-ish and noisy and i just love the feeling. I exceptionally adore chinese new year because on those few days, everywhere would be blasting tunes that you know by heart and you get to dress up and visit everyone and just be happy on that day without anyone thinking that you're going bonkers. Christmas is fun too, but it doesn't have that boisterous feeling like chinese new year:D it is more of the time of the year where you settle down and think about how great the year has been:D Anyway, i love the smell of cookies when they just came out of the oven, and the feeling of garlic being fried when you step home from school. I want to learn how to play the piano even though the notes look like bean sprouts like me and i can only recognize numbers. I'm in love with country music that has a story behind it because i think songs only make sense when there is a reason for them being written. I miss playing on the swings and running amok like a little girl and i dream that one day, i can be one again. I love dance because i feel less lanky and uncoordinated when i'm dancing because right now, i'm tall and you will not believe how many scraps and pathetic falls i get into everyday because my arms and legs are way too long. I don't dream about guys as much as i used to because right now, i learned that life does not just revolve around love itself because its not worth being gloomy over a single guy and I don't believe in love at first sight. I think love is a magical thing though, because when you love someone, you tend to put him before yourself and that goes against the human nature of thinking about yourself at first. I love writing more than any of those things above because the words on paper are my voices. I'm extremely self-concious and i over analyze everything i see but sometimes, i know that a person cannot be perfect and glam all the time. If you're too perfect, you tend to look at people's flaws more critically and eventually, their flaws become unbearable to you because you have them as well. I believe that we should be just who we are, so if you day dream about love and people tell you to give it up, don't. I have a dream of creating a writing world where people can read when they feel sad, and then feel happy after that. I love writing stories and my main characters often carry characteristc traits of yours truly, and will continue to do so because when i solve my main characters' problems, i learn how to solve my own too. I believe that there is always a fairytale ending for everyone, and it all depends if you want to pursue it. I'm a terribly flawed girl who loves to sing in the toilet, dreams of being a superstar one day, and thinks of changing the world by myself as if i will ever be superman. I used to be a pushover and i was too lazy to even stand up for my own rights but now, i believe that we are all not angels. We are human beings, and if we're upset, we have to do something to ease the pain away. I never liked to scream at people, or people yelling at each other but i understand that they have to find a way to get rid of the things stuck in their chests. I write poems about the things i feel but mostly, they are not meant in any malicious way unless, you've been malicious to me of course. But when that happens, i'll think hard on whether its worth being malicious back. I get scared very easily and i stress and panic really easily but then, i would find a solution to the problem just as fast. I suffer from inferiority complex but i hate to let it ruin my life because its really not worth it. I used to be afraid and anti social but i've learned that to make friends, you have to be a little thick skinned at the beginning because its the hardest to be the first one to say, "Hi." Did i mention the fact that i think love is magical? Well, writing about love is part of me, and i guess it will always be. This place is one outlet where i can just let my thoughts flow and i love it to bits because too often, i dream of ideas that never really do see the light of the day. I treasure each new idea that comes to mind and i hope that one day, it gets shown to the world. And now, I hope that this blog, brings you magic, something that you need in your life, something magical, just like love.
Oh, did i forget to mention? I'm a girl thats called limshan.
And I'm a sotong.:)